«resignata»

i no longer care to be a hero,
no longer care to be a martyr
of this cause i know not myself

these flagellations that slash my back
i no longer care to feel
or see them slice
and whip my body in shapes
i no longer recognise

i no longer care to be my enemy, my foe,
so i can yearn to be your friend
or bear it all

'til i can be the one i long to know

i no longer care to dare
nor care to see how i can fare
if i no longer care to be
if i no longer care to care